The same ambience, the same aroma of coffee, the same activities going on around. But the people are no longer around.
It has been one year, in a blink of an eye, but it hasn't been that long actually. But we have all moved far ahead, undoubtedly changed in various ways.
Bittersweet memories, but just a little disappointing ain't it?
I am toying with an idea. What if I knew I was going to die? I recently read the book Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom. Morrie really faced death with such strength and courage. He had reached a certain state of enlightenment I guess. But I who have so much less life experience, how would I face it? Not that I have some life threatening disease.
Its far from death really, but yet similar in a way. It will not be permanent but I will be suddenly pulled away from my world next month for quite a while.
And I cant help but wonder.
How will the world I know go on before me? Will the world even notice my abscence? And how will my loved ones cope with it?
I suddenly realise that this seperation might not only be my suffering. Theres so much I want to do before this.
In short, I just want to tell them I really love them. That I forgive them for everything wrong they have done, and am thankful for everything good they have done.
And that I really really love my family, though its the thing I show the least.
But it doesnt hurt as bad as I expected it to. Just a mere hollow-ness left. Or to better define it, an emotional vulnerability.
Jiayou alvin.
Not a blade of grass moved in my field. Not a whistling of the wind blowing through my woods. It was unstartlingly quiet. Not quite as expected. It was too quiet.
Then the dark clouds gathered, and the rain followed. Just a drizzle. Nothing more.
And it goes on drizzling, here in my world.
How can I ever prepare myself for that upcoming thunderstorm?
Right now, I just feel like running in the rain.
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